What is happening?
I guess there must be a solid reason why this happened to me. Maybe, He wants me to be grateful for all the things that I had before, and wait patiently for the unexpected rewards in the future. But, I'm still a kid. I have complaints. I have needs. I have dreams. There is nothing wrong if I want to be sad upon not getting what I want. I am a normal human being. Would it be illegal for having emotions? I just need to learn to control it perhaps.
Someone once said to me "If you managed to control your emotions during difficult times, you can achieved many things in life". I think he is not saying that you should have no emotion at all, because that would be inhumane. It is just if you can control your emotions, people will called you professional. That's it. I learn something today for sure.