Sunway Lagoon (Part 2)

Syazana.

This post is dedicated to my beloved friend Syazana. Well, I think you are the only one that is reading all my blog post, I think.

 So, this is following my first trip to Sunway Lagoon to try the bungee jumping. I forgot where I stop in the last post so we just go to the event of the day lah.

I registered, paid the bungee. Actually the actual price for bungee jumping is RM80 (for Malaysian citizen). But, the cute guy in the counter said that I could get less RM20 if I just like their Instagram account so duhh. *Liked*

I was waiting in line and suddenly all the butterflies in this freakin world somehow decided to gather up and settled in my empty stomach. Damn it. Was waiting in line looking at other people jumping in front of my very eyes, good Lord, they don't even scream like what? Asal tak jerit doh korang gila ke apa. Then my turn came. Wow, God knows how nervous I am.

My happy face tbh

So, the guy put the safety rope on me and everything, man it actually hurts my legs a little as they tighten the sponge(?), I don't know what is it call.

Abang tali jokingly said the rope pernah snapped before ha ha ha so funny la Abang - -'

So, despite the funniest joke I had heard in my life, with a heavy heart, I now stand at the end of the platform ready to jump. Nah, I am so not readyyyyy haha another Abang had to persuade me for about five minutes before I really jump though. Seriously, I almost gave up, like lantaklah RM60 melayang I don't care I don't want to do this. But, thanks to Abang tali and Fatinah who kept on motivating me, I took a deep breath, screamed my heart out and I jump! Yeay!

The thing is that, I jump funnily because I don't hear the instruction properly during the briefing so I look like a corpse being thrown form a cliff  like so jelly, so funny. One thing I regret until today was that I closed my eyes. Mannn, I miss the best view because I am too scared. I have the video of my first bungee in my Instagram, it is too much of a hassle to upload it here so you can watch it here. Anyway, looking forward to have another bungee jump moment again. In Macau, maybe?

One of the best day in my life I must say

p/s: I love you Sya and I miss you so much xoxo

Lorry and Bus

Yesterday, I almost got hit by a bus.

Yeah, I don't really know how to cross the road since I was small actually. Once, I almost got hit by a lorry in front of my house (my house is close to the main road fyi). Thanks to my mom for calling my name which stopped me to look at her when suddenly I felt a gush of wind pass by me. My mom was screaming and I just froze there, too shock to even do anything. That was my first time I encountered a dramatic near-death experience, I think. I have been traumatized since then to cross the road and always need someone's help if I were to cross. My family and friends know this.

Again, it all came back to me yesterday when I was almost got hit by RapidKL bus to be exact. It is just that I am  running to cross the road to catch the bus on the other side of the road, afraid that I would miss it just to wait another half an hour for another bus. Not even thinking, I just run. Thank god , the driver saw me and stopped. He shook his head and I couldn't be more embarrassed and scared than ever. I sat on the bus, not doing anything uulike always (playing with my phone, listening to songs). I just stare out of the window the whole journey to the LRT Station, still shocked.

The thing is that, it took me to almost got hit by a bus, only to realize that I didn't want to die yet. I used to think that dying was the only solution to my misery, but not anymore now. I realize that I want to love more, I also want to be loved. I want to ask for forgiveness and forgive people too. I haven't done enough for my parents, I want to see my brothers, sisters again and again. Playing and fighting with them. I want to go out and enjoy road trip with my friends, eat good food with them, try out new restaurants and watch Marvel movies and more. I want to meet basically everyone. I want to love everyone. I haven't realize how much I want to love until yesterday, the day when I almost got hit by a bus. 

Lazy

Thesis. No start. I'm dead.

Hmm, allahu, allahu, allahu. How to be rajin hah? I need to start working on my thesis like freakin' RIGHT NOW for god sake! Too lazy to do so. I need something to push me but what? I don't even have a specific title yet. I am so dead.

I need to be able to know what am I going to research about and only then I can pick my supervisor. But, no title, no supervisor lah of course. Dah la tak banyak lecturer yang available untuk jadi supervisor, considering the number of other students lagi who will be taking their thesis subject with me. Can I quit? No, no, no. I can't talk shit like this.

I am just gonna chill for a few days then I will think about this again.

Au revoir~

Salam.

Sleepy

Hi! How you guys have been?
Me? Nope, not doing so well lately. I'm scared. Terrified to be honest and I don't exactly know why. Help me. Help.

Nak mengadu, tak tahu nakmengadu kat sapa. Letih, sangat letih. Rasa nak jerit mintak tolong, tapi sapa ja nak dengaq. Nak buat macam mana ni?

I feel sleepy like all time. Whenever I feel sad or stressed out, I automatically feel sleepy and nowadays I sleep so frequent I lost track of time. I only woke up to pray and mandi then I sleep again. I don't want to be that kind of person. I wanna be happy.

Let me be happy, Allah. For once, let me be.

Salam.